Go and say goodbye P it will help ease your pain and I am sure she would love that you took the time to come and see her. I go to my dads grave often and talk to him. I know its crazy but it makes me feel better so why not. I am sure a trip to your grandmother's grave will do the same for you. 
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					Originally Posted by Seeking ~P  Mine New Year resolution is:Improve my mental health
 
 Meaning:
 Visit w/my grandmother. I never got to say goodbye
 I wanna go and spend most of the day w/her and talk
 w/her and apologize for being such a spoiled brat. I've never went
 and visited her. I've been
 putting this off year after year.
 
 This is prolly not appropriate here but it helped me just now ....
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As for my resolution I would like to try to be more satisfied banging the civilians in my life and slow down on the pay for play. Maybe invest the 15+ k I spend a year on sugar babies and hookers into my retirement account.
Whats bad about the above is while typing it I realized that I spend more money on hookers than I save for my retirement each year. That cant be good can it lol