A really interesting pm

[Old-T]

Phoenix, you seriously need to back away from the ledge. There are pleanty of flaked out and hostile posters in Austin (the whole Austin forum is beginning to look like a Crips/Bloos gang war with opportunistic snipers joining the fray for fun), but some of your stuff is going beyond the normal juvenile BS on here.

Your HIV beliefs are dangerous to you and others you interact with.

Your comment about children has no place here (and I am not talking about the board rule, I am talking about minimum levels of human decency). Regardless of other circumstances you are letting these threads become an obsession that is not healthy for YOU.

You don't find me praising Mata, Little Ricky, KR, WD, etc., so don't take this post as me suding with those miscreants. My comments are strictly about how you are acting on here. It has a lot of dangerous signs. Please, take a break and get back to reality.

[FirePhoenix]

Yes, I'm saying that and I lot more. At least you know where to visit them and cry over thier graves. It's a lot more than I EVER got. So you back off because you DON'T know that pain, now do you? So on an anniversary and you get to say goodbye know that you get to have the consultation to be able to do so.

[Kickrocks]

Originally Posted by FirePhoenix

KR, why the hell are you being the person that your friend killed herself over. You want to talk about someone that needs some threapy. You so far have shown yourself to be one of the most fucked up trolls of this board. Sorry but you are beating out both whisper's and SL put together. That's how fucked up your shit is.

No one killed them self over me. I knew someone that did commit suicide but I bet I was the furthest from their mind when they did it.

Me saying you needed to see someone wasn't disparaging, it was sincere.

[FirePhoenix]

Old-t I respect you and what you have to say. What I'm saying is that stop with the bullshit misleading interpretation of what I'm saying. Don't call me out for what another person does even more than I EVER have. I also said that I "understand the loss of a child more than she could ever understand". She chose to say that I was bringing up her stuff. I simply said I can understand a situation . She took it to that place.

[FirePhoenix]

KR, I never once said it was about you that she killed herself over. So don't try that bullshit. Learn how to read. Get a tutor and threapist KR.

[Kickrocks]

Read what you wrote.

[Old-T]

You have no knowledge about what losses I have had, so don't presume you do. You will almost certainly be very wrong. I have lived a long time and have had very good times along with those that curse my soul and my dreams decades later.

I am not telling you how to feel, I am saying other people's children is not an appropriate topic for thjs board.

[Kickrocks]

Originally Posted by Old-T

You have no knowledge about what losses I have had, so don't presume you do. You will almost certainly be very wrong. I have lived a long time and have had very good times along with those that curse my soul and my dreams decades later.

I am not telling you how to feel, I am saying other people's children is not an appropriate topic for thjs board.

He is old, he might be right.

[FirePhoenix]

I also say that I don't know his past,his pain,or even him. Niether does he. I will also say that my children are all from the man I was married to. Thank goodness I have never been married again. Once was enough for me.

[VictoriaLyn]

Originally Posted by FirePhoenix

Yes, I'm saying that and I lot more. At least you know where to visit them and cry over thier graves. It's a lot more than I EVER got. So you back off because you DON'T know that pain, now do you? So on an anniversary and you get to say goodbye know that you get to have the consultation to be able to do so.

Last warning... Stop mentioning them

[FirePhoenix]

Let me make this very CLEAR , because everyone else seems to have this very dangerous misinterpretion- would you want the provider that just used the condom or the provider that uses both the condom and a medication that helps prevent HIV?

[FirePhoenix]

Get a hint Victoria- I didn't. You did. Also thank you for not acknowledging my pain of a loss a child/children that there isn't even a body to bury. Having to live every single day of not knowing where that child's body even is. Thanks for your understanding of that pain. And also have to live with that pain for years every single day. To see a child's face that looks like your child's face and have your heart ripped out because to not know if your child is dead,alive,hurt, the constant abisis of not knowing and trying every single day to find them is a black hole of torment you at least didn't get to know much less years of it.

[VictoriaLyn]

Originally Posted by FirePhoenix

Old-t I respect you and what you have to say. What I'm saying is that stop with the bullshit misleading interpretation of what I'm saying. Don't call me out for what another person does even more than I EVER have. I also said that I "understand the loss of a child more than she could ever understand". She chose to say that I was bringing up her stuff. I simply said I can understand a situation . She took it to that place.

To tell a mom who has lost children to a death that she doesn't understand the pain is just wrong.. I would never say that to another grieving parent.. Only a truly fucked up deranged individual would.. You brought it up I only responded

[FirePhoenix]

No one should go through what you or me alone. I don't know if you did but I did

[FirePhoenix]

This is my song for me kids and for that terrible time that I'm having to relive again.

https://youtu.be/2uR96vc2Y3I