Bribing The Realtor

[otrdriver]

Where the hell did the cheese puffs come from ? lol can't wait for the end.

[DFK Hunter]

Originally Posted by otrdriver

Where the hell did the cheese puffs come from ?

The food replicator, of course...

BTW, driver, who's that in your avitar?

[gatewayloco]

wow...................nuff said.

[DFK Hunter]

First things first, Kate is still happily married to Harold. My suspicions were basically correct, they had gotten into a spiral of poor communications. Later, she even told me I helped save their marriage. I wouldn't recommend that type of therapy for most relationships (but send pics, I'm willing to consider).

Because of some the volunteer work do, I may see Kate once or twice a year, never for very long. A couple of years ago we wound up seated across from each other a banquet table. I didn't check to see if she kept her legs crossed.

About a year after Kate I found ASPD and the hobby. Still searching for the fully-clothed fix.

When I started writing the last Saturday I had no idea it would span over 9,000 words. The memories came back in a flood, but the compression ratio of the pictures and words in my memory banks exceeded my estimates. Also, the actual mechanics of writing was more difficult that I expected. Besides the difficulties trying to type with a 14-lbs Siamese purr-monster in my lap, I was also writing each part twice. Once from memory and once for deniability which meant I was averaging about 4 - 5 words a minute. But it's done now.

I inserted the Captain Little Sailor and crew of the good ship USS Hunterprize when I was looking for a good way to illustrate the Big head vs Little Head debates some us have. It became a simple and much more humorous way of conveying what I thought to be rather complex emotions in a few words. What is interesting is how funny (to me) some of the bits were after I wrote them. At the time I wrote them I was trying to convey certain emotions I didn't have words for. Don't worry, the Ship and her crew will continue on their mission looking for willing skirts with legs in pumps, and the occasional cheerleader, or two. And breakfast.

And just so you know, I LOATH cheese-puffs.

[dallasfanboy]

What an incredible story.
Bravo. DFK Hunter, Bravo.

[xperiment]

I am sure DFK you will get plenty of people responding with different opinions, just as you did with your friend's daughters post. Somewhere in there I am sure fake or fabricated will come along. However after reading several of your posts and how you deal with things I have to say you are a truly great soul.

Much lesser people would have done much less. Here you had a great woman who fell in love with you and you were seemingly trying not to fall in love. Then to take a non selfish look at the big picture and think of more then just yourself. Yes we can talk about Harold, parents, uncles, sisters, brothers, godfathers sisters uncle's parents ex-roommates friend in a underwater basket weaving club twice removed. However most importantly is a good sound and stable loving environment for her kids and yours.

That being said it was a great story and I definitely see how you struggled writing it. After your wifes death seems as you found another soul to cherish and her to cherish you, only to walk away from it. You have my utmost respect (that and $0.99 will get you a small Wendys Frosty). I truly believe in Karma and think this will come back to you later.

Again thanks for sharing your story.

[Tara Evans]

I just love reading youre novels DFK hunter.

[JROD]

YOU SIR, are a wordsmith.
I enjoyed every bit of it....Not as much as you did!

[DFK Hunter]

Originally Posted by Tara Evans

I just love reading youre novels DFK hunter.

You're sweet, Tara, thank you.

[rekcaSxT]

DFK, I loved the story, but...

Obviously the loss of CJ put you in a place where you didn't want to fall in love again, and your kids didn't want you to date.

I am a pretty jaded guy myself, and I don't want to fall for anyone, but sometimes it just happens.

Your description of Kate, and I mean the whole package, not just physical, had me falling for her. She sounds like she obviously knew how to please a man, enjoyed the give and take in intimate situations, and was very passionate. I had an image of her in my mind, a specific woman (mainly because she fit the description), putting a face to the story made it very real to me.

I know in the end it worked out for the best, she went back to her family and you to yours. But I would have had a very hard time not falling head over heels for her.

Which makes me think... we play in a world where there is a fine line between hormones and emotions, and those lines can get very blurred at times. Many of us are here because we don't want/need/are afraid of emotional attachments. Sometimes I wonder if I am doing more harm than good playing with those fine lines.

Thank you for the story DFK. It was a great read, and in my mind it was happening to me. It seemed so real, you have a great talent in communication. You story also made me think and put a few things in perspective. Thank you for that as well.

[fun.time.hobbyist]

DFK,

This was a great read. Honestly, it took a lot for you to push her back. It would have been easier to take her away. Tough call there. It must have taken a lot to walk away. In the end you showed you're a good guy by putting her family first and reminding her of it. Thank you for sharing your story.

Good luck with this hobby. I've found it is a double edged sword. It fulfills a need, but really hinders you from meeting someone new. It fills the void of intimacy and feeling wanted, but does not last. Recently, I've struggled with am I a good person? Am I good enough to give her what she deserves? After reviewing my faults I have my answer. Sadly, my answer is no, I'm not good enough for this lady. It's a gut wrenching feeling. My hobby experiences combined with several other factors led me to find my answer. Sorry to hijack.

[DFK Hunter]

Thank you all for the kind comments, I appreciate it.

I need to clear something up, yes I love Kate, I care for her very much. I would unhesitatingly sacrifice my life to save hers; however, I could never marry her. Remember, loving and being in love are two different things. I'd freely sacrifice my life, fortune, and honor for either, but I could only marry for one.

Also consider my anxiety issues plus my history of marriage fidelity. Put it together, do you I think I might have some trust issues? I'm not saying it's right, I'm just saying I'm human.

There's more here than is here. I tried to leave some hints.

One more thing, if the truth could be known, you'd understand as I do that Harold comes out as the better man.

[rekcaSxT]

I don't fault you for what you did. Part 9 makes it very clear you were looking out for Kate and Harold. I just don't know how you were able to be selfless. I know you have the anxiety issues, but I would think it would also be really hard not to want to stay with her. She seemed perfect.

[Lana Warren]

For once, I am speechless! Well done, sweet gentleman!

[DFK Hunter]

Originally Posted by Lana Warren

For once, I am speechless! Well done, sweet gentleman!

Thank you Lana, you are sweet.