Is this how it ends? I hope so. (public version)
Went to the dallas county health and human services STD dept last week.
Not having any symptoms, I just wanted to be honest, legit, and truthful as I overcome my self esteem issues and pursue civilian women .
My choice was a full screening with HIV or only HIV and get the tests in about an hour, like lenscrafters.
I went for the full screen. I was told that the results would be back in 3-5 days. So call back 5 days from now. I got an id number and phone nubmer to call to get my results. I would get the results over the phone if I was clean , but if they find HIV or Syphillus then they would make me come in for the results.
Being that I am on presciption mood meds I did not feel the anixiety or shame of some one that may have been expericening symptoms.
The whole process with appointment took about 40 minutes , which inluded waiting time and also going to another floor to pee in a cup.
I did notice at three girls there that were super hot, even though they all obviously put out , this was not the circimstances some one should be asking for phone nubmers. \
I spent the next 4 days thinking how would I handlle it if I were HIV pos? MAgic Johnson has been positve for over twenty hyears and he anint dead, but he is rich.
In a nut shell HIV is not a death sentence like it was 20 years ago. Like Chis Rock said, they aint curing it , they are just amking it so you can live with it, There aint no money in a cure. On youtube there are tons of videos by regular people who share thier experiences how they found out , how long ago , yadda yadda. If some one has HIV they can harbor it and never get AIDS them selves. finally therer are alot of HIV positve dfating sites on the web.
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\Coulding wait unitl Tuesday so i called for my results today. waiting on hold to speak with some one , pulse racing , literally sweating. THe results would determine how I would live the rest of my life. Anything ovther than HIV I can deal with.
The results were all NEGATIVE!! I did ask her twice.
At this point I am guessing that some might think that I was positive for something, but becasue I brought up the topic I will just say All the tests came up negative so i can stay active in this community. Not so, If it was something that could not be cured, I would not have followed up with a new thread and eventlly been forgotten,
I thought about how many girls I have barebacked since I started this hobby, and it is betwen 20-30, most multiple times.
I never won the lottery but these test reults may be as close as I'll ever come.
Good enough.
since posting I have been to a suburban amp for a meassge and a handy. That doesnt count against me does it?
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